I can not speak yet. The world seems so full of live everywhere and I just want to sleep. Be calm. And nearer to you. Everything looks so impossible without you. I know they are not impossible and that I need to find more distraction for myself so I can get my mind for a few moments of you. But with everything that I do, see or hear, I want you to know and experience with me at the same time. And that hurts. From inside. So much.